The Freshman Experiment

Music: Gavin Degraw – Chariot

This Thursday I’ll be sitting in a classroom and officially be considered a sophomore at this school. What does this mean for me? Well, technically I should know my way around campus really well but I still got a little lost today. But the most obvious conclusion is that I am no longer a freshman and, thus this site, its purposes, and of course, the name no longer applies to me.

When Kait and Brian approached me with the project my initial reaction was “What the hell are they thinking?” Sure, I write short stories every now and again, but a blog – where my life is the central focus! They were obviously sippin’ on 40z when they came up with this idea. I told them over and over that I’m boring, uninteresting, and that I wouldn’t know what to write. They curtailed my nervousness by putting unwavering trust in what they believed I could do, especially Brian, whose only experience with my “talent” was watching me read/perform a short monologue I had written in middle school. So, they may not think it, but they definitely took a leap of faith on me.

As I began writing I was anxious about many things – how would we get traffic? What should I write that will be good material for a song? But mostly, I was afraid of what the readers would think of me. Here I was, offering up snippets of my life, not everything, but certainly personal snapshots that could be used against me. None of you did that, and I sincerely want to thank all of you for being open and accepting. You guys never judged me for my drunken antics, boy drama, and amazing talent for procrastination. Although, I could’ve used a slap down to reality during the Wishy situation.

The amount of stress that LAC creates is expected but still incredibly hard to handle. It’s a school whose prestige is pretty unknown unless you religiously read U.S. News Rankings and live somewhere on the east coast. I needed this blog to help handle all of that and put certain situations in perspective. In the end, Kait and Brian were right; I am somewhat of a good blogger. I like expressing myself in this medium and so even though FreshX has to close, I’ll be moving to a new URL.

That’s right, guys. Hopefully by Friday I’ll have my new blog up and running. Admittedly, it won’t be as fancy shmancy as this one, but I think we’ll all be able to manage the downgrade. The other noted difference is that I won’t be writing under a pseudo name. I’ve thought about it a lot and revealing my identity feels like the best thing to do. It will give me more freedom to write and, I think, it’ll be a better read for you guys. Another surprise is that Kait and Brian will still be present at the new blog but the logistics of that still need to be worked out. I hope you guys will follow me there!

Well, there it is. The summer and FreshX are coming to a close. I’ll continue writing here until Friday!